I’m Tracy – bartender – Ft. Lauderdale Beach Florida. If you’ve been down to the beach in the past 10 years, chances are I have served you some fun. NOW I NEED YOUR HELP.

I have been unable to work for 2 years now, due to my chronic debilitating pain in my neck and head. Bartenders know – you don’t go to work - you don’t get paid.

I have been through hell. So many doctors, so many doctor appointments. So many diagnoses, so much pain, so many procedures, so much neglect, self paid surgery and self paid procedures. My health care refused me care, on November 12, 2007. I still have to pay 309.32 a month for a healthcare that won’t help me because no other company will now pick me up. They have the choice to pick and choose what will be covered and what will not, due to each procedure. You may think you have healthcare but have you ever had to use it. There are 158 of these insurance companies in Broward County alone, each a middle man insurance company not a real insurance company, which I found out when I needed my surgery. They can make the agreement handbook say what they choose.

I made $800.00 in 2007 and my doctor appointments. alone cost me $40,000.00 – you do the math – I’m in the negative and that is just for 2007 alone not including 2008 financial crises. I’m in trouble. BUY THIS IS NOT FOR MONEY, I NEED SAVED. I NEED A DOCTOR.

I NEED A DOCTOR TO HELP FIND WHAT IS CAUSING THIS NECK AND HEAD PAIN. SOMETHING IS CAUSING IT. It goes back to cause and effect, something started this pain. I feel the nerves in my head, it hurts so bad, all the time. MY PAIN STARTED NOVEMER 6, 2006 AND HAS NEVER STOPPED SINCE THAT DAY. IT NEVER STOPS. IT’S HARD TO BELIEVE BUT THIS HORRIBLE PAIN THROUGH MY HEAD AND NECK IS CONSTANT. IT’S MAKING ME CRAZY. I don’t leave the house, I have been in bed for two years with my head and neck packed in ice. ALL DAY, EVERYDAY.

The pain is overwhelming, it over comes me everyday. I can not work, I can not function. MY LIFE, MY SPIRIT, MY SOUL HAVE ALL BE TAKEN AWAY FROM ME. I am suffering everyday – along with all those who love me. I’m 39 years old and my life has been taken from me with this pain. Every fiber of my being feels this pain, by mid day I’m saturated with it.

The pain is constant – My neck, back of my neck, up the back of my head, up around my ears and into my temples. I am on ice everyday. My right side is a little worse than my left but it is constant on both sides.

It all started when I was driving home from work on November 6, 2006 – my vision went blurry, I had to pull over and became violently sick, vomiting out my car door. My head has hurt ever since. Something happened that day and the pain has ruined my life.

I’ve seen about 15 specialists.

• Primary Care
• Cleveland Clinic FL
• Neurologists
• Neurosurgeons
• Anesthesia Pain Care Consultants
• Ear Nose Throat
• Eye Doctor
• Chiropractor
• Immune Specialists

Emergency room visits, and doctors told me I am above their knowledge.

My pain is horrific, it has taken my life. I’m dying everyday. I’m loosing all I believe in. I need someone to help me.

I have lost everything I’ve worked my whole life to get from this illness.

I was told I have occipital neuralgia – but there are no tests to help find my compressed nerve – and this surgery would not be covered. There’s no way to know if it will help me.

I have already paid for surgery that did not take my pain away. My parents had to take a 2nd mortgage out on their house to help support me.

I need help, I need saved. I need someone to figure out what is wrong with my body.

I try each and everyday to not be taken over by this pain, and each and everyday I LOSE. The day just goes on and I just get worse. My life has been taken from me. And I have to watch my family, my wonderful, strong force boyfriend, my beautiful german shepard suffer because I’m in so much pain and can’t live anymore. All my friends used to tell me to stop being so damn happy all the time. I was a bright light and now I’m not.

I have tried my own therapy:

• Books
• In and out of bed
• Ice/Heat (EVERYDAY ALL DAY)
• Forced myself to walk (Increased pain level)
• Tried to break pain cycle
• Tried no pain medication to make sure I don’t have rebound headache ( I DON’T)
• Positive thinking tapes
• Meditation
• Massage
• Live in the NOW but I’m suffering in the NOW

NOTHING worked NOTHING has broken my pain cycle.

All my doctors don’t want me to come back to their office. They don’t know what to do with me.

I feel my neck is the problem – It hurts so bad – and my head hurts – not sure if it’s one problem or two. I feel that if my neck was healing I would not have pain in both head and neck, therefore my neck pain would go away without me noticing it. Was told my surgery would take away my pain by moving the herniated disk away from my spinal cord, but it didn’t. I suffered through the pain of a horrific surgery and trying to heal like the surgeon told me I would. And then came the day I just had to admit that my pain was the same.

After this incident on November 6, 2006, I knew something was wrong with my body but didn’t know what it was. I tried to continue working and pushed myself because doctors were telling me there isn’t anything wrong with me, and then I became so sick with mono Epstein Barr illness. That added to more misdiagnoses and terrible sickness in my body. I couldn’t move for at least 6 whole months, couldn’t get up to brush my teeth. This sickness, coupled with chronic pain in my head and neck, no wonder I’m this messed up. This whole mess has destroyed my life as I knew it. I never called off sick a single day in 9 years before this illness.

No doctor wants to be responsible for me. I need to be saved. This pain is eating at my SOUL. It has stolen my sunshine and my smile.

I have contacted the Insurance Commission, many times. I’ve met with Senator Ring. I was told there are bad people running these insurance companies. I wrote Commissioner Hastings a few times. I have contacted every assistance program available in the state of Florida and not one of them will help me. I have written them and called them and no one will help me survive because I’ve worked my ass off my whole life and bought a home. I’m punished with no assistance because I own my home.

I contacted the news papers, and managed to have an article written about me in The Miami Harold written by John Dorschner. I tried to get more attention from the papers, including The Sun Sentinel but they have so many stories I became of no importance. My mom and dad have tried every avenue you can think of to try to get me help and try to get additional help from my healthcare but no one cares.

I still feel as bad – so bad – so much pain – same pain after all these procedures. I feel there is something wrong with my body and every doctor is missing something. I’m in too much pain for these tests to come out with no answers as to why I feel this way. MY BODY IS SCREAMING “SOMETHING IS WRONG HERE”. THE PAIN HAS TAKEN OVER MY LIFE. It’s taken my life.

All doctors sent me to someone else, and told me they can’t help me. I can’t find any other tests to use to help me. DO YOU KNOW OF ONE?

I can’t take anymore. The hope and faith I carried to each procedure, especially my surgery, and then after each one realizing – MY HEAD AND NECK PAIN IS STILL THE SAME. I have been through so much, and nothing has helped stop this pain, it seems endless. Please try to imagine suffering this long (2 years) and watching everything you have worked so hard for fade away right before your eyes. GONE. This is my story. Please help me reach a happily ever after ending!